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Breaking My Chains

John Nash, the brilliant mathematician whose life and struggles with schizophrenia were depicted in the film A Beautiful Mind, once said, “I wouldn’t have had good scientific ideas if I had thought more normally.” His journey was a testament to the power and resilience of the human mind, even when faced with severe mental challenges.

But what of those whose battles are internal, unseen, yet every bit as fierce as Nash’s?

My Beautiful Mind

For me, the canvas of my mind is painted with the dark hues of depression, the jarring strokes of anxiety, the haunting silhouettes of trauma, and the ever-present specter of imposter syndrome.

Like many others afflicted with these struggles, these battles have been fought silently, away from prying eyes, and within the confines of my own thoughts.

Until now.

Just as Nash found ways to cope and thrive, I have realized that although I suffer from a symphony of internal conflicts, I can also find solace and healing.

And, by sharing my thoughts, I can help others with their own struggles.

I am in the process of a transformation, a rebirth of my mind, and I am doing this through daily meditation, shadow work, and daily practices and rituals to help me continue down the path of spiritual growth.

Daily Meditation

Just as the bleakness of winter gives way to the freshness of spring, daily meditation offers the mind a reprieve from its chaotic cacophony. Imagine meditation as a small boat struggling in the tumultuous sea of thoughts. Over time, as the waves of anxiety and depression rise, the boat of meditation keeps us steady, enabling us to navigate these waters with a renewed sense of calm and clarity.

Shadow Work

Embracing one’s shadow is the act of confronting the repressed and denied parts of the self. Shadow work is a journey inward, not unlike Nash’s endeavor to distinguish between his hallucinations and reality. As we delve into the recesses of our past traumas and suppressed emotions, we acknowledge them, own them, and, in doing so, rob them of their power over us. By facing our darkness head-on, we illuminate it, turning our shadows into guides rather than adversaries.


Humans, by nature, seek structure and routine, a touchstone in the whirlwind of existence. Rituals, whether as simple as morning affirmations or as elaborate as celebrating the Sabbats or dancing around a fire under the light of the full moon, provide opportunities for grounding. They remind us of our innate power, our connection to the Universe, and the cyclical nature of life.

Through simple daily practices, we find the magic in the mundane, transforming our daily lives into a sacred dance of self-love and healing.

My Thoughts

When faced with the myriad challenges of mental ailments, it’s easy to feel lost, like a ship adrift at sea. But by turning to these age-old practices of meditation, shadow work, and rituals, we anchor ourselves. We harness our inner John Nash, reminding ourselves that even amidst the chaos of our minds, there is beauty, strength, and an indomitable spirit waiting to shine forth.

In the end, every mind is beautiful—a canvas of experiences, emotions, and memories. And just as the seasons change and the wheel turns, bringing new life, hope, and rebirth, so too can our minds evolve, heal, and ultimately thrive.